The Dream...

I went to bed 0500ish after drinking a bottle of red in Swissotel Stamford hotel, Singapore…I slept for 8 hrs and woke up to send crew upline sheet, then came back room to get some more sleep as my wakeup call was 1700 operating Singapore to Melbourne, then paxing to Sydney.

During my 8 hrs sleeping time, I had a dream which I dreamt of my ex ( my Forth Love ) and it was quite a story surprisingly…In my dream, I met him whose name was Narat, somewhere and I could not remember where we firstly met. We talked a lot as we had not seen each other for years, then I remembered we went to eat together and I obviously had a great time for his company and at that moment I felt for him again after nice long conversation we had. Then we went to sort of bar or club together on that day or the day after, I was not sure…I remembered we walked together and stopped at one point where there was no one around, we looked at each other, then we kissed. I still remembered that kiss as I could felt his soft lip on mine and I felt so real, indeed. I felt so vulnerable again but so happy for what happened. We had sex after that and the same old feeling during we were a couple coming to my mind again.

We had a great time together and unfortunately I found out that he already had a wife who just gave birth to a boy two months ago. I was speechless but I kept myself together and decided that I had to stop ongoing relationship between me and him. I did care about his wife and a baby and I didn’t want to be an asshole to cause all problem. One day, I talked to him about this and of course I did cry a lot ( I woke up at one moment and I felt I was crying and then I went on sleeping again;-)but he wanted to go on with me. I shouted at him to go and that was too loud, i reckon.

And that was it...After i woke up to get ready for the flight, i felt a bit depressed and did miss him right a way and honestly i dont like this feeling at all. I haven't seen him for like 10 years now, then i did check on facebook searching his name but unfortunately his name is not in there. All my previous love, he has been the one that i miss the most. I dont know why but i think i want to see him again and say hi and i am so sure that he's already married as he is a bisexual. Oh Dear ;-)